I have been trying to find myself lately and haven’t had too much luck. I am the type of person who needs to hammer out a timeline and stick to a schedule. When I don’t I feel very unaccomplished. I think I need to change some things in 2005!
I want to loose weight, get in shape, and become much less stressed out. I need not worry about things so much. I guess I am much like the society I live in. Everyone I see is stressed, worked to the bone, and just plain tired. It is just the way it is. The thing is I can say “That’s life” and do nothing OR I can change my programming.
I realize that who I am and how I act is very much a conditioned response to how I was raised. We all learn how to act while growing up. If we see a response to something then our brains make a connection that could later be played out. We hear it all the time, “You act just like your father!” or vise versa. The thing is we were programmed that way. If we dont like certain things about different family members then we need to watch out for those things playing out in us. If we are balls of stress and acting like someone we disliked as a child then the first step is to become aware. Now that I am aware, I am going to try and re-program myself this year. I am too obsessed about things and find myself asking “Why do I even really care about that”. When the answer is “I dont know”. Then I probably don’t need to care about it.